the next day

Letting the mind awashed with work and gym is pretty much a good distraction.

I saw down at my desk. And listed out 3 goals on my note book.

Giving me a sense of direction amid the darkness that suddenly envelops me

I cringed at the memory, my eyes become minuscule with the blackout becomes a vision of a sedative.

Retail therapy does help. Working pants, a belt and a magazine lighten the heart and the wallet.

One way to put things into perspective is karma.

Karma of what I did to others and now, its back to haunt me. So maybe I deserved it.

I do have to respond with a haughty laugh though.

I really put in my all, my heart, my soul.

I was nice, I was affable, I was sincere.

But it all adds up to naught it seem.

Nevertheless. I may hear my critics laugh or my friends consoling.

That I cannot seem to feel. Because it is a dark hole I have fallen into.

An abyss that I hope to hit the bottom soon.

Then I will pick myself up at the base and climb out.

It's been a pretty long while since I got into touch with my emotional side and translating it into words.

As vague as all the text may seem, it is just an expression of my inner thoughts.

And yes, my mind can only resemble one thing. A vortex of failure and hope.

emo

I would like to pen my thoughts on a broken heart.

How feelings can be so transitory.

One moment you're in, another moment you're gone.

How does the broken heart continue to bleed then.

Gone are the days of fleeting sonnets that dispel undying love.

Cometh the rational sensibility of what makes one plus one two.

Lurched all alone, thinking of the it's me and not you.

Hardens me up to think is there even love in this world.

Love that is an unsolvable emotional equation.

Comprehension is far from the mind, as the blood trickles incessantly.

The wound will heal eventually as time will take its recupatory toll.

Vulnerable. Yes, I am. And it now makes me ponder.

The bar set to cross is even higher. Expectations run that much higher.

I leave this void closed.

Loving is and Loving has and Loving what was will just be just that. Just words.

For now. I cease to breathe romantic whispers lest the roman pillars crumble on me.

roller blading

It's been a long time since I updated.

I got a job so Yippee. Life changing experience for me so yeap.

Been busy settling down and hanging out with my friends.

Hardly reach home before 9 pm with my nightly activities.

Just wanna record down the list of activities for the past few month that I went missing.

Zouk with Eric n Ivan
Shokudo with Wendy, Clara n Junne
Blading with Jason, Clara n Junne
Mahjong sessions with Aaron, Tiffany n Lucia
Chilling with Rayner
Makan with Josephine
St James with Eric, Sharon n Steph
Coffee with Richmond
Magic card gaming with Lawrence n Leon

This list is non exhaustive but the memorable happenings for me.

Shall let the lot of photos do the talking.

Blading at ECP



With Junne Babe



Pretty skaters



Jason, Me, Clara n Junne



Rollerblade virgins



Cool shades



Moobs for grabs



Clubbing with Germaine n Lucia



Clubbing with Sharon n Steph




Coffee with Richmond


Rayner n Me



Shokudo with the babes



Me n Wendy



Mambo with Eric