aims

Happy Birthday to both Clara and Eddee.

Hope you guys are happy reaching a significant market. 20 and 25.

Sometimes, birthdays work as a marquee of what you have achieved for the past year.

Some aim for riches, some aim for fame, some aim for family happiness, some aim for well-being, some for personal welfare.

Everyone is in a struggle to achieve their aims.

I guess I am not made for riches or fame.

I don't have a talent or a skill to stand out.

It is always a constant struggle.

Whether you are 16 battling out the 10-year series, 23 years old battling out the exam clock or 28 trying to fight for that pay rise.

And what will it come down to in the end.

We all die eventually.

Sorry to be despondent but has anyone ever look at the end game.

It's the journey of life. The experience that one garners through it all.

And in retrospect. I'm 25 soon and what have I achieved.

Have I experience what I want to experience yet.

I am more financially independent now so what is the next chess move.

To struggle as a middle class lab rat in society.

Yes, I might not have the pleasures of life or the wealth of a happy family ahead but in a way.

It's my own battle to fight. My own war that I am conquering my very own aims.

spinning around

it's the month of April

and everything is not going as smoothly as what I preplanned.

Lots of hiccups and torrential tornados of life daily's spin.

It's hard to phrase what I'm going through but it's mostly an emotional grind as compared to the physical and mental hardships that some people are facing.

I'm in no position to demoan but I'm glad to be thankful for the blessings I already have.

I wonder what it is like to pack my bags and leave the country.

The feeling of abandonment coupled with a renewed sense of adventure. What courage would I need to pack up and go.

Clara's birthday is encroaching and she's reaching the big 2-5.

Talk about quarter life crisis.

It has been five years since this blog has been set up.

And I have every sound and mind to close it down.

Given that I am a working professional and would prefer to stay below the radar among potential clients and sort, having a blog means a sacrifice of personal space but with that gain of voyeuristic pleasure.

I'm still debating this consequence and hence, my reluctance to blog about daily issues about my trials and tribulations.

Partially due to my laziness. And I would like to blame the non user friendliness of Blogger haha.

i'll take each day as it goes.

The road I take might be a winding road but hopefully, I reach my destination.

I'm not destined for greatness. I walk my own path of happiness.

Ben

april

in a nutshell.

occupied.